Ugh. Seriously can there be anymore death? It feels like death has moved into the valley and decided to stay awhile. Well I think it needs to move on to a different place. Like the middle of the ocean. Kill a few crabs, instead of children who had their whole life to live. Ah. Let me explain my frustration, my anxiety, and my sadness. The Loss of Jaxen, she was only 17. The 13 year old boy who got hit while walking to school. Brackon,20, who was hit by a semi. And now my cousin, 20, was found dead in his bed.
My cousin names is Skyler Webb. We were close as children, but grew apart. I didn't see much of him, our life styles were complete opposites. I was out Christmas shopping when my mother called me up to tell me that she couldnt meet me, and had to go over to my aunts house. I could hear the sadness and the unbelief in her voice as she was talking, and I knew something was going on or something had happened. Then she told me, that he had passed.
My heart breaks for my family. For my aunt, who struggles. She is the sweetest person in the world, she would give you her shirt. Even if it was the last one she had. She loves her family with unconditional love. Her life has not been the easiest or the richest. She has tired do the best she can for her family. My heart aches for my grandma and grandpa who love each grandchild with all of their hearts. My heart aches for my aunts and uncles. My heart aches for my Mother.
I wish things were different and I was just a close with my cousins on my moms side, but I cant change things. Theres things that I just do not wish to be around, but it does not mean I love them any less. I love them alot, they are my family.
I loved Skyler and I have may fond memories of him. I cant't wait to see him again and punch him, and ask what the crap he was thinking.
This link is his obituarie http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/saltlaketribune/obituary.aspx?n=skyler-lee-webb&pid=154523399&fhid=4550.
I just wish that Death would just leave. The people who have died, so young. It breaks my hear to think about what they could have done in life, who they could have been. If they made all their dreams come true. If they made a difference in the world. But I feel like they have a higher calling that they are needed else where for something just a tad bit bigger.
Make sure you always tell people how you feel. Make sure you tell your loved ones that you love them. You will never know when they will leave the earth. Yes, we will see them again. It s just a matter of when that time comes.
